Project
Poem

Date
06/20/2020

- Warning: Senitive Content -

I want to go home

I smile at my family and friends

Holding back tears

Holding back feelings

Holding back the darkest of thoughts

I want to go home

Would anyone really care if I'm gone?

Why would they?

I'm a nobody

Who cares if I go home?

I want to go home

Hours in my room

Under a blanket

Remember when it was once a fort?

Now it's just sorrow

Just pain

When did life get to be like this?

Adults never warned me about this

Why didn't you?

Maybe I'm broken

Maybe I'm the only one who feels like this

I want to go home

Home

The place whose location is unknown

But yet I know not here

Not with my family or friends

Not with my address

I want to go home

I know it's far

For most people at least

But sometimes it's quick

With a snap of a finger

You're there

At home

I want to go home

I'm jealous

Jealous of the people who made it home

Why can't I just be like them?

Knowing me it's because of the pain

The biggest wuss wants to go home?

That's a funny joke

But it's true

Home only comes from pain

Sometimes the pain is quick

Other times it lasts and lasts

Until you are broken from the inside out

And it is only now

Through tears and panic

That I realize

I don't actually want to go home